The Unheard!! (All that i have told you a thousand times)

When the space is wide
Between your heart and mine
There is so much that
you could have done to make it fine
And then you say you did....so much for me
But i didn't let you in
Is it so baby..??
Y didn't you try and knock again
I was waiting and i still am
For you to come and tell me
that things will be alright
that you are still there by my side
You admit to your faults
But have you ever thought of correcting them all
No baby you dont want me
All you want is yourself only
its too early for you to feel the pain
And when you will it will be too late
I have loved you and i always will
But its hard to wait till eternity!!!!

All that you cant leave behind!!

A love that was born so strong
But was forced to die
Till all the signs were out of sight
It took you a minute
And me a life
to come out of all the mess you left behind!!

When you Know, You are not Alone!!

It was a lonely night
With absolutely no light
There was tenderness in the wind
And thunderous thoughts racing through my mind

Walking down to the abyss of the unknown
I saw a faint light...
I started walking towards the light...
Which was getting dimmer by the mile


I thought of running...
but something told me that it will all be wasted
But you cant know if its good...
Till the time...its not tasted


So should i run to the light
or should i wait for the night...
My mind wrestled
Perplexed thoughts entwined...


I just ran(not knowing why)
to the light..as if running for Life
I never knew i so wanted things to change
I hate the way its been all these days


Wasted Years...Is it fair?
Living in the shadows of a barless prison
Waiting for a change of season
Will i ever reach the light??

Shutting thoughts out of my mind
Still running to the light
Frisky me! Now disillusioned and tired
Trying to find a way out of the anguished mire

Now that the light is near..
there is not a mile that i can bear..
panting heavily...and my lips parched
The distance seemed perpetual

I stopped to catch my breath
and turned around to look
at all the distance i had left behind
Amazed i stood...unable to move..
Seeing all those who were running behind..

Oh Lord! again i was one in the herd...
Its enough...i just dont want to run!!!

Thinking of a Beautiful world

I just woke up, none was true...far from you,
A tangled dream...dreamed out!!
Nothing left to figure out,
What if my god abandoned me????
What if it wasnt the way i see..????
Don't want no persistent dreams...!!
When will these memories stop haunting me??
Why cant it be a beautiful world...
I want to breathe life again...because something dies in me...everytime you falsify me!!!!

Stop looking for a way out!!!!!!!!!!

The stars are all tied, and hidden from the sky
Darkness pervades the celestial kingdom.
You cant be seen because yor were never there,
Unyielding prayers are filling the air,
Crying stars...now smoking Marijuana,
Trying to get rid of the deepseated disdain,
After a few drags.....Solace is coming to life,
Its nice to know that you all are still alive,
You got a lot of living to do..without life..!!

Jus anotha RAPE!!

Lyk ne otha gurl….she was full o desires n dreams..
Walkin down d street…thinking o a fren she hd to meet.
But it was getting dark n late…so she thought o avoidin her mate

Hurryin back home in worry….
Al o a sudden…a car stops…
D nxt thing she knoes…shes dragged in…
Her screams fill d air…but no one hears..
The door closes…d car races…on a ride
Wid d innocent inside..

Dey force demselves into her…
Ova n ova again..despite d cries

She pleads…… Mercy! Mercy!
But d devils don’t care
Shes vociferating, but shes nt spared

And den wat seemed an eternity…shes thrown off d car
Wid multiple scars..both on body n soul
N dere dey go on d roll
She tries to move…but shes trampled by pain
Alas! her efforts r in vain

There she lies not knowing what to do
Shes plunged into darkness..too maddening to b known

She wakes up in a hospital bed…
Wid ppl al around her…al eyes filled wid…pity, loathe n blame
She closes her eyes tryin to escape d shame
Her mind contemplatin d life ahead…
A life o neverendin agony…coupled wid her unrequited dreams..

She prays dat her end shld b near…
Coz sympathy is wat she cant bear..
Irony is, everyone around..talks o justice…
Wen d bastards r out…Scott free…
On sum otha Heinous spree…
Oh lord…wen ll she b heard?
I reckon..never!!


For creeps it was jus sex….for her a kind o death…
For us jus anotha case o rape…
Sum ll see it..othas ll giv it a miss….coz most o us think..dis is how d condition is…
A piece o news for al o us..dat ll go stale in a while…but trust me..dat gurl ll neva smile!!

Heaven in making..!!

Once upon a time
When angels and demons were friends,
They sang happy songs,
Feasted together n had a ball,
Seeing them together,
Was a delightful sight,
There wasn’t no heaven or hell,
It was so miraculous,
And there was nothing ,
That could ring a bell

But there was jealousy spawning,
In a demon’s head,
Though he bejeweled his hatred,
Under numerous charades,
He was disgusted by,
The beauty angels possessed.

So the demon was,
Enumerating various plans,
To sabotage and maim
The angels for once n for all.

The angels unaware,
Of the evil ahead,
Were happy in thier neverland,
Dwelling harmoniously,
With their demon friends.

The damned demon seeded,
His envy in others as well,
And waited for it to season,
So that he could commence,
His forbidden plans.

N then the day came,
When mayhem broke,
Love got sordid,
N trust poked.

Angels and demons
Fought in glory,
A battle fiercely gory,
The demons wronged angels
For an inculcated distrust.

The demons fought,
With all their physical strength,
But couldn’t overpower
the goodness angels had.

After the battle the angels
Were vehemently mightier
N told demons to move,
To a different land….
n coz o this, today…. The beautiful heaven stands..!!

Fragmented relations..!!

I am blinded by tears, with all the memories etched in my mind
The days we spent togatha are still alive
My soul is scarred by the wounds of time
And I know they won't heal till you are not fine
sadness has embraced me and all I can hear is the echo o despair
i am a wreck…n I know u were right
I was mean…and you were pristine
I was the one who fragmented our friendship
now I look for a faint shadow o you in all my relationships
Alas! i am disappointed..because there is noone I can share maself with
Believe me life's too short for hating n regreting
Livin alone is what I can't take
Come back is all I can say, i want everything as wonderful as the last may..!!

Ameen, this ones for you!

Love Unanswered!

Y cant u love me, d way I do
It isn’t really hard, try n u ll knoe
But u dun evn care, n dats d reason u aint here
U jus walked outta ma life,n its cutting me lik a knife
Dats pierced deep into ma skin, n u dun evn consider it a sin
I jus wanna get rid o ya in ma head
Coz u hv already made ya own bed
N m not d one sleepin in it,its ya picture n I dun fit
It was jus ya al along, nw I finally knoe I was wrong
I thought I lost ma paradise, but it was blinkin hell in disguise
I hv stopped askin questions, dat can neva b answered
Coz its d art o foolin dat u hv mastered..!!

Living on a prayer

Livin on a prayer
Tryin to b fair
Sittin in despair
Wanting al dats nt dere
Wretchedness isn’t wat u can share
Its clandestine n u hv to bear
Wen prayers go unheard
A virtue, patience is still dere
Being a fugitive tks ya nowhere
It leave ya tainted n noone cares
M al weary o d masks ppl wear
Coz its hard to see thru such layers
Prayers for life or livin on a prayer
Sins can neva b spared..!!

On its own accord..!!

I wanna live n I so wanna die
I wanna love n I so wanna smile
I wanna laugh but I always cry
Its al so hazy n yet so clear
Lifes a dream so real
Understandin it is losin al I hv eva known
Breathin to live is lik choking to death
Breakin dese shackles wont set me free
Rather I ll loose wat I hv eva been
M on a lookout for maself but every time
I get to me, m trampled by reality
Sunshine seems near but isn’t anywhere
On d blink o ma eyes m in d middle o nowhere..!!

Unveilin happyness..!!

Its been awhile I havnt written nethin in ma blog.. actually I couldn’t possibly cum up wid sumthin intrestin nuff..or I shld say I felt creatively drained al dis while. everyone who reads ma blog keeps askin me y d hell I write depressin stuff…I really dun knoe d reason ..mayb its jus wat I truely feel..but dis is ma attempt o writin sumthin dats contrary to wat I feel …Happinees its an intricate topic n sumthin dat al o us r lookin for…n interestingly none o us thinks dat he/she’s happy…its weird but nt so weird…
I recently saw dis movie ‘THE PURSUIT OF HAPPyNESS’..starrin Will smith..n d movie was good for me.its a story o "rags to riches".i really liked it coz d story perfectly fits in everyones life..n each o us can relate wid it on sum or d otha point in our life..al o us crave for happiness..al our acts hv d same rationale..happiness…n v look for it in ppl, in things, in moments..everywere, al d time coz none o us can really relish sadness.. Will smith in d movie remembers a quote by Thomas Jefferson which goes lik “maybe happiness is something v can only pursue, n mayb actually neva have it”…n most o d times I feel dis is so true…v jus keep chasin happiness…n can neva really grab it n b happy..but y is it dis way..y cant v really b happy????…I hv been contemplating ova dis n I realized dat al o us hv our own definitions for happiness….for sum happiness is havin a lotta bucks…for othas it is finding his or her true love…for sumone jus a walk in d woods brings happiness…for others evn al d riches in d world aren’t nuff …I mean for most o us happiness isn’t sumthin dat pertains to d inner self…al o us keep lookin for it in d outer world…where v can neva find it…coz if our happiness depends on ppl or things.. than its bound to go away ..we can neva really sustain it..coz it isnt inside us or even ours…happiness can never b gauged thru money or ppl.. v hv to transcend d earthly happiness in order to attain divine happiness coz only if its divine or heavenly it ll b dere for eternity…al o us hv been mistaking happiness wid sumthin vich is momentary whereas its eternal…v jus wanna forgo d sad part o life nomatter if it actually means being happy or nt..its jus dat v loathe sadness n can do nethin to get rid o it. v are hardly troubled about knowin d real happiness. Real happiness is al bout smiling on d inside..cherishin ya existence.. its achievable only wen v really understand dat dere isn’t nothing in d world dat can mk us happy if our soul isnt dipped in solace….as al d worldly possessions wont b dere foreva but if v r truly happy…noone can seize it..!!

In love with the pretence..!!

“Real love amounts to- letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending- performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true, we're locked in an image, an act- and the sad thing is, people get so used to their image, they grow attached to their masks. They love their chains. They forget all about who they really are. And if you try to remind them, they hate you for it, they feel like you're trying to steal their most precious possession” Jim Morrison wrote it beautifully…n I so agree dat all o us live wid a mask on … v r so afraid to live widout our masks…or v r afraid o ourselves n our own reality; our feelings most of all …d mask doesn’t remain d same..it keeps changing in diff contexts… diff ppl, diff masks…..changin masks is more comfortin dan being ones real self…n it comes naturally to all o us..v dun evn get to knoe wen d mask changes…d transition is so smooth..n hs become a part o our lives…..v hv jus become fakers,…n v dun eva really feel guilty…coz v keep runnin frm d real….wen v r wid othas…our frenz, acquaintances, loved ones…nebody it b…dere isn’t a nanosecond..wen v r widout a mask..v keep feignin wat v aren’t…n mayb hate to b…at night wen v snuggle into our comfort zones…v try n keep our mind engrossed in things dat aren’t really pertinent…coz dere is dis lurkin fear o meetin d real self….but dan at times no matter how hard we try….d virtual world closes on us…d curtains fall….n d real resurrects…n den we introspect…everythin around us….n dere is dis fumbling realization of livin wid a mask….n we think dat we can neva really get rid o it…n r so stuck wid d same…but we can…its jus dat we dun hv d courage…to face d world widout one…we r scared out of our wits…..of losin ppl..or things dat aren’t really ours…but belong to d pretence.. v become wat othas demand us to b…n dat is how v kill our real self…n d thin false veil drawn before d real self…becomes more real dan d reality….n den ppl love our pretence nt us…