Thinking of a Beautiful world

I just woke up, none was true...far from you,
A tangled dream...dreamed out!!
Nothing left to figure out,
What if my god abandoned me????
What if it wasnt the way i see..????
Don't want no persistent dreams...!!
When will these memories stop haunting me??
Why cant it be a beautiful world...
I want to breathe life again...because something dies in me...everytime you falsify me!!!!