On its own accord..!!

I wanna live n I so wanna die
I wanna love n I so wanna smile
I wanna laugh but I always cry
Its al so hazy n yet so clear
Lifes a dream so real
Understandin it is losin al I hv eva known
Breathin to live is lik choking to death
Breakin dese shackles wont set me free
Rather I ll loose wat I hv eva been
M on a lookout for maself but every time
I get to me, m trampled by reality
Sunshine seems near but isn’t anywhere
On d blink o ma eyes m in d middle o nowhere..!!