Questioning the rain.

The constant sound of rain, pouring into my ears
Drops against my window pane
I want to feel them in my face,
Not only see them falling in the infinite open space
My thoughts are fickle and make no sense
Just like the rain which doesn’t know when to fall on the other side of the fence.

In the end...only you remain!!

Shackles o loneliness on my body,
Are now cutting into my flesh,

The blood pouring out,
Is painting them red,

Freedom isn't something that's on my mind,
It’s you and the pain inside,

The pain is brutal
And m losing myself,

There is nothing that I can do,
Just wait for you!
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Blinding lights,
Fading my vision.
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Deafening silence
Is it time yet?
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I am free after all

From disgrace and false praise
From everything
That never came


But I want to tell you that,

Everything out here bears a faint resemblance with you

The clouds
The stars
The angels

All of them remind me of you!!

Revelation.

An obsolete closed closet,
is what i have become.

With things buried in my heart,
And waiting for love to last

Uncertain & succumbing,
Wandering in the shadows o the woods.

Where ghosts of the past still remain,
And timelessness prevails....

Dying to live..

There is life and there is death..
and in between are things unsaid,

When the sun is dull
and your life..seemingly full,

Some creatures are looking down on the earth
wondering why, a ship sails through an ocean,

Why people keep running in circles
why is it all so shallow, when it should be deep,

Is this what they call life and being,

The clock is ticking at a rapid pace
i am scared that nothing will be left of my face,

Are we all waiting for our death row
or a better life in charade,

One day,
I shall smile and it will be mine
and then there will be no fear no pain
It will be right there... waiting with my name..!!

The Unheard!! (All that i have told you a thousand times)

When the space is wide
Between your heart and mine
There is so much that
you could have done to make it fine
And then you say you did....so much for me
But i didn't let you in
Is it so baby..??
Y didn't you try and knock again
I was waiting and i still am
For you to come and tell me
that things will be alright
that you are still there by my side
You admit to your faults
But have you ever thought of correcting them all
No baby you dont want me
All you want is yourself only
its too early for you to feel the pain
And when you will it will be too late
I have loved you and i always will
But its hard to wait till eternity!!!!

All that you cant leave behind!!

A love that was born so strong
But was forced to die
Till all the signs were out of sight
It took you a minute
And me a life
to come out of all the mess you left behind!!

When you Know, You are not Alone!!

It was a lonely night
With absolutely no light
There was tenderness in the wind
And thunderous thoughts racing through my mind

Walking down to the abyss of the unknown
I saw a faint light...
I started walking towards the light...
Which was getting dimmer by the mile


I thought of running...
but something told me that it will all be wasted
But you cant know if its good...
Till the time...its not tasted


So should i run to the light
or should i wait for the night...
My mind wrestled
Perplexed thoughts entwined...


I just ran(not knowing why)
to the light..as if running for Life
I never knew i so wanted things to change
I hate the way its been all these days


Wasted Years...Is it fair?
Living in the shadows of a barless prison
Waiting for a change of season
Will i ever reach the light??

Shutting thoughts out of my mind
Still running to the light
Frisky me! Now disillusioned and tired
Trying to find a way out of the anguished mire

Now that the light is near..
there is not a mile that i can bear..
panting heavily...and my lips parched
The distance seemed perpetual

I stopped to catch my breath
and turned around to look
at all the distance i had left behind
Amazed i stood...unable to move..
Seeing all those who were running behind..

Oh Lord! again i was one in the herd...
Its enough...i just dont want to run!!!

Thinking of a Beautiful world

I just woke up, none was true...far from you,
A tangled dream...dreamed out!!
Nothing left to figure out,
What if my god abandoned me????
What if it wasnt the way i see..????
Don't want no persistent dreams...!!
When will these memories stop haunting me??
Why cant it be a beautiful world...
I want to breathe life again...because something dies in me...everytime you falsify me!!!!

Stop looking for a way out!!!!!!!!!!

The stars are all tied, and hidden from the sky
Darkness pervades the celestial kingdom.
You cant be seen because yor were never there,
Unyielding prayers are filling the air,
Crying stars...now smoking Marijuana,
Trying to get rid of the deepseated disdain,
After a few drags.....Solace is coming to life,
Its nice to know that you all are still alive,
You got a lot of living to do..without life..!!

Jus anotha RAPE!!

Lyk ne otha gurl….she was full o desires n dreams..
Walkin down d street…thinking o a fren she hd to meet.
But it was getting dark n late…so she thought o avoidin her mate

Hurryin back home in worry….
Al o a sudden…a car stops…
D nxt thing she knoes…shes dragged in…
Her screams fill d air…but no one hears..
The door closes…d car races…on a ride
Wid d innocent inside..

Dey force demselves into her…
Ova n ova again..despite d cries

She pleads…… Mercy! Mercy!
But d devils don’t care
Shes vociferating, but shes nt spared

And den wat seemed an eternity…shes thrown off d car
Wid multiple scars..both on body n soul
N dere dey go on d roll
She tries to move…but shes trampled by pain
Alas! her efforts r in vain

There she lies not knowing what to do
Shes plunged into darkness..too maddening to b known

She wakes up in a hospital bed…
Wid ppl al around her…al eyes filled wid…pity, loathe n blame
She closes her eyes tryin to escape d shame
Her mind contemplatin d life ahead…
A life o neverendin agony…coupled wid her unrequited dreams..

She prays dat her end shld b near…
Coz sympathy is wat she cant bear..
Irony is, everyone around..talks o justice…
Wen d bastards r out…Scott free…
On sum otha Heinous spree…
Oh lord…wen ll she b heard?
I reckon..never!!


For creeps it was jus sex….for her a kind o death…
For us jus anotha case o rape…
Sum ll see it..othas ll giv it a miss….coz most o us think..dis is how d condition is…
A piece o news for al o us..dat ll go stale in a while…but trust me..dat gurl ll neva smile!!

Heaven in making..!!

Once upon a time
When angels and demons were friends,
They sang happy songs,
Feasted together n had a ball,
Seeing them together,
Was a delightful sight,
There wasn’t no heaven or hell,
It was so miraculous,
And there was nothing ,
That could ring a bell

But there was jealousy spawning,
In a demon’s head,
Though he bejeweled his hatred,
Under numerous charades,
He was disgusted by,
The beauty angels possessed.

So the demon was,
Enumerating various plans,
To sabotage and maim
The angels for once n for all.

The angels unaware,
Of the evil ahead,
Were happy in thier neverland,
Dwelling harmoniously,
With their demon friends.

The damned demon seeded,
His envy in others as well,
And waited for it to season,
So that he could commence,
His forbidden plans.

N then the day came,
When mayhem broke,
Love got sordid,
N trust poked.

Angels and demons
Fought in glory,
A battle fiercely gory,
The demons wronged angels
For an inculcated distrust.

The demons fought,
With all their physical strength,
But couldn’t overpower
the goodness angels had.

After the battle the angels
Were vehemently mightier
N told demons to move,
To a different land….
n coz o this, today…. The beautiful heaven stands..!!

Fragmented relations..!!

I am blinded by tears, with all the memories etched in my mind
The days we spent togatha are still alive
My soul is scarred by the wounds of time
And I know they won't heal till you are not fine
sadness has embraced me and all I can hear is the echo o despair
i am a wreck…n I know u were right
I was mean…and you were pristine
I was the one who fragmented our friendship
now I look for a faint shadow o you in all my relationships
Alas! i am disappointed..because there is noone I can share maself with
Believe me life's too short for hating n regreting
Livin alone is what I can't take
Come back is all I can say, i want everything as wonderful as the last may..!!

Ameen, this ones for you!

Love Unanswered!

Y cant u love me, d way I do
It isn’t really hard, try n u ll knoe
But u dun evn care, n dats d reason u aint here
U jus walked outta ma life,n its cutting me lik a knife
Dats pierced deep into ma skin, n u dun evn consider it a sin
I jus wanna get rid o ya in ma head
Coz u hv already made ya own bed
N m not d one sleepin in it,its ya picture n I dun fit
It was jus ya al along, nw I finally knoe I was wrong
I thought I lost ma paradise, but it was blinkin hell in disguise
I hv stopped askin questions, dat can neva b answered
Coz its d art o foolin dat u hv mastered..!!