Living on a prayer

Livin on a prayer
Tryin to b fair
Sittin in despair
Wanting al dats nt dere
Wretchedness isn’t wat u can share
Its clandestine n u hv to bear
Wen prayers go unheard
A virtue, patience is still dere
Being a fugitive tks ya nowhere
It leave ya tainted n noone cares
M al weary o d masks ppl wear
Coz its hard to see thru such layers
Prayers for life or livin on a prayer
Sins can neva b spared..!!

On its own accord..!!

I wanna live n I so wanna die
I wanna love n I so wanna smile
I wanna laugh but I always cry
Its al so hazy n yet so clear
Lifes a dream so real
Understandin it is losin al I hv eva known
Breathin to live is lik choking to death
Breakin dese shackles wont set me free
Rather I ll loose wat I hv eva been
M on a lookout for maself but every time
I get to me, m trampled by reality
Sunshine seems near but isn’t anywhere
On d blink o ma eyes m in d middle o nowhere..!!

Unveilin happyness..!!

Its been awhile I havnt written nethin in ma blog.. actually I couldn’t possibly cum up wid sumthin intrestin nuff..or I shld say I felt creatively drained al dis while. everyone who reads ma blog keeps askin me y d hell I write depressin stuff…I really dun knoe d reason ..mayb its jus wat I truely feel..but dis is ma attempt o writin sumthin dats contrary to wat I feel …Happinees its an intricate topic n sumthin dat al o us r lookin for…n interestingly none o us thinks dat he/she’s happy…its weird but nt so weird…
I recently saw dis movie ‘THE PURSUIT OF HAPPyNESS’..starrin Will smith..n d movie was good for me.its a story o "rags to riches".i really liked it coz d story perfectly fits in everyones life..n each o us can relate wid it on sum or d otha point in our life..al o us crave for happiness..al our acts hv d same rationale..happiness…n v look for it in ppl, in things, in moments..everywere, al d time coz none o us can really relish sadness.. Will smith in d movie remembers a quote by Thomas Jefferson which goes lik “maybe happiness is something v can only pursue, n mayb actually neva have it”…n most o d times I feel dis is so true…v jus keep chasin happiness…n can neva really grab it n b happy..but y is it dis way..y cant v really b happy????…I hv been contemplating ova dis n I realized dat al o us hv our own definitions for happiness….for sum happiness is havin a lotta bucks…for othas it is finding his or her true love…for sumone jus a walk in d woods brings happiness…for others evn al d riches in d world aren’t nuff …I mean for most o us happiness isn’t sumthin dat pertains to d inner self…al o us keep lookin for it in d outer world…where v can neva find it…coz if our happiness depends on ppl or things.. than its bound to go away ..we can neva really sustain it..coz it isnt inside us or even ours…happiness can never b gauged thru money or ppl.. v hv to transcend d earthly happiness in order to attain divine happiness coz only if its divine or heavenly it ll b dere for eternity…al o us hv been mistaking happiness wid sumthin vich is momentary whereas its eternal…v jus wanna forgo d sad part o life nomatter if it actually means being happy or nt..its jus dat v loathe sadness n can do nethin to get rid o it. v are hardly troubled about knowin d real happiness. Real happiness is al bout smiling on d inside..cherishin ya existence.. its achievable only wen v really understand dat dere isn’t nothing in d world dat can mk us happy if our soul isnt dipped in solace….as al d worldly possessions wont b dere foreva but if v r truly happy…noone can seize it..!!

In love with the pretence..!!

“Real love amounts to- letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending- performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true, we're locked in an image, an act- and the sad thing is, people get so used to their image, they grow attached to their masks. They love their chains. They forget all about who they really are. And if you try to remind them, they hate you for it, they feel like you're trying to steal their most precious possession” Jim Morrison wrote it beautifully…n I so agree dat all o us live wid a mask on … v r so afraid to live widout our masks…or v r afraid o ourselves n our own reality; our feelings most of all …d mask doesn’t remain d same..it keeps changing in diff contexts… diff ppl, diff masks…..changin masks is more comfortin dan being ones real self…n it comes naturally to all o us..v dun evn get to knoe wen d mask changes…d transition is so smooth..n hs become a part o our lives…..v hv jus become fakers,…n v dun eva really feel guilty…coz v keep runnin frm d real….wen v r wid othas…our frenz, acquaintances, loved ones…nebody it b…dere isn’t a nanosecond..wen v r widout a mask..v keep feignin wat v aren’t…n mayb hate to b…at night wen v snuggle into our comfort zones…v try n keep our mind engrossed in things dat aren’t really pertinent…coz dere is dis lurkin fear o meetin d real self….but dan at times no matter how hard we try….d virtual world closes on us…d curtains fall….n d real resurrects…n den we introspect…everythin around us….n dere is dis fumbling realization of livin wid a mask….n we think dat we can neva really get rid o it…n r so stuck wid d same…but we can…its jus dat we dun hv d courage…to face d world widout one…we r scared out of our wits…..of losin ppl..or things dat aren’t really ours…but belong to d pretence.. v become wat othas demand us to b…n dat is how v kill our real self…n d thin false veil drawn before d real self…becomes more real dan d reality….n den ppl love our pretence nt us…