शाम

छोटी छोटी खुशियों की तालाश में,
धीरे धीरे पिघलती जाती है ज़िन्दगी हर शाम,
कभी नौकरी, कभी अजनबी तो कभी अपने आप की तलाश,
कभी कभी सोचती हूँ तुम्हारे बारे में,
पर शायद धुंधली हो जाती है यादे भी उम्र के साथ,
अब तुम्हारा ना आना भी बुरा नहीं लगता,
ढून्ढ लिया है अब मैंने अकेलेपन में ही आराम!

YOU

The day when all the faces seem blurred as if they don't matter. When every word that you hear is muffled beyond comprehension. When the only thing you can foucus on are your thoughts.
Today is one such day. When the entire world is depopulated and only you and me exist.

Couples i've known over the years.

*The other half in the relationship becomes your universe. Your entire life revolves around them. Having a sense of location is a good feeling but sometimes it makes you sick. But you still keep revolving, because that is what you know best*

The perfect misfit.

Unusual sights never fail to amuse us. And you rarely come across something/somebody that captures your imagination and makes you think about its fragile existence. Like the tiny kitten that i encountered on a sidewalk near my house. A white colored creature with green hopeful eyes. She seemed like a perfect misfit. She just wasn't suppose to be there, she belonged someplace else, some place better. After a few days of feeding her and trying to talk to her, i looked forward to seeing her every evening and i always saw her all curled up in a lil corner, almost invisible to the rest of the world.
And one day i couldn't find her anywhere on that sidewalk. The wonderful creature was gone. Maybe to a place where it did fit. But the sidewalk was never the same again.
This is the case with us all, we just never seem to fit at the place we are. We always want to go to a place where we think we belong. But as and when we leave, we leave behind us an empty space that might be filled sooner or later. But it can never be the same again. No matter whatever/whoever happens.

Say it out, loud.

Say it before the night ends.
Say it before the truth bends.
Say it before you lose a friend.
Say it and let your inhibitions shed.
Say it so that you aren't alone where you stand.
Say it otherwise the world will never understand.

Duality of mind.

Even you are emotional..but you are trying so hard that your emotions become dysfunctional. You won’t ever pour your heart out in front of anybody but deep inside you, there is everything that you keep running from...love, angst, pain.. And trust me the more you run the more trapped you’ll be because there are things that all of us don’t wanna admit, not even to ourselves..but they are right there inside us and they will keep haunting us till we don’t make them a part of our reality.

You Oughta know What's real.

The time has come,
to face the sun.
To look you in the eye,
And tell you, i was just having fun.

They say there is light,
at the end of the tunnel.
I don't see light,
i only see trouble.

Stories.

A billion stories,
most of them unknown.
Buried, lying, waiting,
on these streets,
we have forever known!

A Surreal Date!

The place is filled with the ghosts of the past,
And a few mortals who seem to be drinking too fast,

My favorite music is pouring into my ears
and i am waiting for my head to clear,

I look at you, a lot more closely
Today you are special,
Not just another one in the group.

I reach out for my LIIT,
that is what will set me free,
Make me talk and not just see,

The glass is cold and it tastes just right,
And seeing you having that whiskey seems to be a perfect sight,

Its our song so why not sing along,
We spoke of life and things ahead
and how he knows more than everything i have ever read.

The end of all inhibitions and fears,
And of all the things i didn't get to hear.

Questioning the rain.

The constant sound of rain, pouring into my ears
Drops against my window pane
I want to feel them in my face,
Not only see them falling in the infinite open space
My thoughts are fickle and make no sense
Just like the rain which doesn’t know when to fall on the other side of the fence.

In the end...only you remain!!

Shackles o loneliness on my body,
Are now cutting into my flesh,

The blood pouring out,
Is painting them red,

Freedom isn't something that's on my mind,
It’s you and the pain inside,

The pain is brutal
And m losing myself,

There is nothing that I can do,
Just wait for you!
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Blinding lights,
Fading my vision.
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Deafening silence
Is it time yet?
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I am free after all

From disgrace and false praise
From everything
That never came


But I want to tell you that,

Everything out here bears a faint resemblance with you

The clouds
The stars
The angels

All of them remind me of you!!

Revelation.

An obsolete closed closet,
is what i have become.

With things buried in my heart,
And waiting for love to last

Uncertain & succumbing,
Wandering in the shadows o the woods.

Where ghosts of the past still remain,
And timelessness prevails....